This is in no shape way or form a recruitment I’m no
magister ,black ,pope, black bishop or claim to be anything of the sort , it’s
not a cry for anyone’s assistance this is by no means me telling you what or
how you should live your life , it’s just a blog – plain and simple
It’s just a flow of thoughts words and consciousness along
with art, music, literature, films, views, concepts ,all of which I just have a
bias which I would like to record , I ask no one to do as I do or take anything
I say as gospel because firstly you should never take another man’s word as
gospel , and secondly I really don’t give a flying fuck about how you feel or
care at how I offend you or disgust you , it’s part of who I am and what I do
,this page is partly truth , partly lies and everything in-between
I am a Satanist ,a leveyan , a musician, artist, an aspiring
writer, freak, leader, slave, ringmaster in the cirque diabalous deceiver,
liar, cheater, destroyer, creator, discordian chaos magician, a demon, a god
within my own domain and all I survey because without me there is nothing
I am all these things as well as none of the previously
mentioned ,I am Satan ,as you are Satan as we are all Satan the bringer of
truths from the lie of all lies!,
So with that in hand I start the blog with a quote from
Robert Anton Wilson from the widow’s son;
All phenomena are real in some sense unreal in some
sense, meaningless in some sense, real and meaningless in some sense, unreal
and meaningless in some sense, and real and unreal and meaningless in some
sense.
After hear it’s your decision if you enter or leave ,
stay or go , it bothers me not , but if you stay then diabolic thanks and
satanic blessings be upon you . Hail Satan!
So how did I get here?
What made me say I am a Satanist?
What is this Satanist thing?
Why are you saying those things?
Do you worship the devil?
Do you kill babies? Do you sacrifice bats and cats an shit?
I’m worried for you. It’s a bad thing that Satanism thing.
That’s a bit strange isn’t it? You’ve always been a bit strange.
Why do you look like that? Are
you Goth or emo?
What are you angry at?
this shit just gets old, I’ve had it for years from people
at jobs, individuals who I randomly come across in the active participation of life,
friends of friends and acquaintances from the general chaotic throng that is life
its tedious its boring, I’m sick of trying to explain .why should I? Why would I
waste my time on those whose opinion and views mean absolutely diddley squat in
my life. In My domain.
Sometimes I just let them think what they like; I leave them
with lies and untruths and misdirection why? simple if they haven’t the ability
to listen , look , search , read , research , and expand their knowledge then
how in the name of the dark lord himself
do they think that they will find this life changing , life enhancing ,all empowering,
self discovering path ?
My path started at a young age, my father who was an
inspiration for me owned a quite considerable occult library, not huge, nothing
of amazing value, but a fair few books and magazines .
Farrars,Sanders ,Gardner, valiant , Crowley
,Frazer,Leland,Blavatsky, Hughes, on one particular shelf and on the shelf
below , science books, nature ,Morris ,Darwin, bronowski,to name a few and on
the shelf below a myriad of fiction from Tolkien to king and Chaucer to homer
and all in between the last but bottom shelf was a collection of holy books and
the collection of spiritual and mythological texts
But on the top shelf there was this book the one that we
always wanted to see the ones we always wanted to see but wasn’t aloud or
couldn’t reach , black books with red writing on , the Dennis wheatley books
naked ladies and demons , four books by a man with a funny name szandor
something ,intriguing, dark ,leather
bound ridge backed books ,ominous scary the talking point of most new visitors
when surveying another’s lair for the first time .
Don’t draw in them books ,don’t touch the cup thing stop
banging that gong you’ll get your arse tanned , you’re not old enough to read that
yet , when your older , put them back , their your dads! He will be pissed right of if you touch them,
ask him if you want to look at them... The bottom shelf was always a the
favourite when we were kids , animals ,
birds , fish , reptiles , bugs, insects
microscopic blobs ,fossils , dinosaurs . ............. Dinosaurs!
Dinosaurs! They were the arena of my maternal grandfather he
was a naturalist he was a fossil collector a bird watcher. he gardened and
lived in the country side and was a gentleman, old school type of style wit and
intelligence, again a library of facts and information filling shelf after
shelf as well as things and artefacts collected from a life time of interest in
all things in the natural world, all for us to look at, touch and get close too.
if there was a question that needed answering he was the man to talk to when we
were kids , days travelling England in
his mark 2 Cortina , stone henge , maiden castle ,roman forts , bronze age settlements
, iron age forts , gardens , museums,
parks ,lakes , zoos ,sanctuary’s , butterfly houses ,old houses , you name it
our holidays and weekends were full to the brim with outings and trips
What’s this got to do with anything?
Well, it starts with my grandmother singing in the kitchen
like she always did lovely tones and trills to the time old classic;
All things bright and beautiful all creatures great and
small all things bright and wonderful the lord god made them all
And under my grandfathers breath I heard a hushed ........‘’Bullshit’’
My grandfather very rarely swore, this made me howl with laughter,
I cried tears of pure hysteria, and he chuckled along with me and said ‘’ don’t
tell grandma I said that ‘’
After the hilarity had died down and we were pottering
around as a ten year old and his grandpa do , I asked him what was it about the
song gran was singing that he didn’t like in a ten year old kind of innocents ,
he replied that the song was a lie it’s not how it is , what? It is beautiful
isn’t it?
There is a beauty to it, it is wonderful, but the song
belies the real underlying chaos and danger that we are actually a part of, it
hides the fact that we are animals, intelligent ones, intelligent apes, living
in a jungle made of stone and steel surrounded by technology and creations of
their fruit finding puzzle solving brains
And here is where the trail starts to turn into a path
here’s where the crossroads truly lie; a cross roads even after most of my life
knowing the works of Dr Lavey and other authors only clicked about ten years
ago it’s the dawning of the idea of how delicate and flimsy this life that we
are thrust upon truly is. From the moment you are plunged into the pool that is
life without consent, without choice you are doomed. From the moment of
conception you are dying, heading towards that final moment, the end.
And all the time you are here you are in the middle of a
battle field full of other animals , fighting for their lives , being hunted ,
dug out of their homes , killed in combat , murdered in open ground , pulled
limb from limb eaten alive , the cold hard beak and claw tearing into the still
warm flesh of its prey ,and on that battlefield we stand open to all the flack
and shrapnel that such an arena could throw at you .
A realisation that this is
it this is the here and now .this is it, there is only this, and without me there
is nothing, this is heaven this is HELL!
And so it goes around and around the circle or cycle if you
like of life, except it’s not a cycle of uniformity it’s a cycle of chaos, it’s
a never ending expanding, explosion of chaos with everything heading in every
direction and every way, without guilt without conscience without fear of
punishment or retribution, we live in a microcosm within a macrocosm of chaos.
And then the day came when I actually started to look at the
words instead of the pictures of the naked ladies and the costumes and symbols
that littered the pages, I started to feed on the ideas in the books from the
middle shelf ,trying spells , rituals, ceremonies, endless nights in the cold
dark woods searching ,scouring the mists and edges of the mystical and occult
,seeking the ghosts and ghouls and demons of the night , praying to the gods of
the past with everything I had , to separate myself from the everyday chaos of
life and all the bad energy and feelings thrust upon me by others, as you do
when young and absorbent .
Then the books that had been on the top shelf finally came
to be in my hands and with it a warning.
‘’ This book is the most important book I've ever read , all
of these other books on the shelves have truths in them , but they are like gem
stones in the mud , you dig and dig and never find what you are seeking ,but that’s
because gem stones don’t come shining and cut to perfection , their ugly ordinary
stones like any other on the beach , it’s you who have to cut polish the gems
into what you desire , but this book starts with a great waste land of despair
and rejection this is a path that can scare , haunt , and follow a person for
the rest of their existence , if they don’t truly accept what is the true path
of a Satanist , it can destroy all which comforts and surrounds them in a
mental shield of ignorance , but if you read it and follow the path ! It can
truly set you FREE! (?)’’
As in many conversations with my father sitting talking
until the small hours an then again into the daylight hours on the subject of ‘’THE
OCCULT!’’ he never covered up any truths , he always told me straight and
always gave me the option of finding out for myself ,
‘’Read it cover to cover a then read it again, see what you
think see where it takes you ‘’
So I did!
Within the pages of this book is a freedom to which I have
never felt more invigorated, enlightened, devoted, and empowered, this book set
me free it gave me all I needed to separate myself from the structure of this
microcosm that is life for nearly every single human being on this planet! It
separated me and gave me my own domain to rule over and to do with it whatever I
want!
It made me a ‘’GOD’’ of everything I do and survey .Satan Himself!
For me the path starts with a big step for a lot of people
it starts with atheism it comes from denying and refuting every holy scripture everything
that is supernatural everything that is written by another man in the name of a
god or by divine inspiration, any text written by a man is just that it is
written by man.
The denial of some of these things can be too much for some
to handle I shall not go into the realisation of atheism, if you need any help
with that there are many videos books and articles by such people as Richard
dawkins, any one of a million evolutionary biologists, chemists, astronomers,
particle physicists, students, and studiers of the wonders of the natural
world, and other forward logical thinkers on the front lines of the atheist
intellectual battlefield.
For me being a Satanist is beyond that I have no time to sit
and debate your worthless scripts and endless pronouncements of guilt and
eternal damnation, continual circular arguments and back and forthing. the
heart of the path is to accept nothing not even the book I take so much
inspiration from , be sceptical and vehemently so , take nothing uttered by
another human as nothing more than what it is until you have proved it for
yourself, and it work for you , until
then it’s a lie .
Being a Satanist enables me to at the first sign of anything
of that nature coming up to use the immortal lines of irrefutable power that is!
FUCK OFF I SEE YOUR AGENDA I SEE THROUGH YOUR LIES YOU ARE A SLAVE IM FREE,
TRULY FREE........ WITH A RESOUNDING POSITIVE POWERFULL............. HAIL
SATAN!
What is this Satanist thing?
For me and I can only speak for myself, it’s not everyone’s
path but it’s how I perceive it. Satanism is the self realization that without
me there is nothing! Irrespective of whether it all continues after death,
without me there is NOTHING! And it is I who makes all and everything within my
domain .it is I who rules and no man nor beast shall enslave or control me
mentally or physically within it, even if they pelt me with guilt and endless threats,
tie me and gag me, torture and kill me, they will never have truly ruled me in
any shape or form. Because Satan has set me truly free.
Why are you saying those things?
In real life? Because why should I not? if I am asked then I
shall answer , sometimes with the truth sometimes with a lie , I answer in whatever
way I see will benefit me the most and enrich my being , if this is to let them
believe their misguided fears of what belief they are shackled by then I may
bolster their stupidity , their herd conformity their own cages of ill informed
information , most who ask , talk , listen and look deeper , have usually seen
something that at least opens a gateway to something new and possibly life
empowering .
Here in a blog? I’m not looking for followers , I’m not
looking for covens , temples , churches or any groups , I’m just expanding my
knowledge , observing and learning , looking and listening , harvesting the
good fruit and leaving the rest for windfall , I’m writing a diary , a list , a
group of thoughts and ideas ,feelings and emotions ,music , art , film,
books that interest and inspires me .as
well as my first attempts and explorations into a new field for me , writing ,
trying to put down in words a train of thought or inspiration , nothing more
nothing less . I’m not writing a new satanic bible or a new book. I’m not
selling anything or trying to get you to subscribe to any ways paths or beliefs
and the like. This is not the truth for you probably as your path will
certainly be different from mine even if it does travel parallel to mine; it’s just
a blog about what ever seems to fit the bill on any given occasion
Do you worship the devil?
NO, I am Satan, Satan represents the self! Hail Satan is a
rejoicing it’s a cry of freedom it is in the literal sense HAIL ME! HAIL
THYSELF AS THE LIVING GOD YOU ARE!
GOD the use of this word is not the usual sense of the word
I do not believe in the super natural in a divine I’m an atheist which means
there is no god , Allah, Ganesh, Odin, Zeus, whatever there is only me. No
supernatural gifts, just god like power to be a creator and a destructor if I
so wish in the manner to which befits the circumstance faced with only the
human consequences of such actions.
Do you kill babies? Do you sacrifice bats and cats an shit? Again
No! There is a very strong net of lies and deceit thrown over the whole
Satanist concept and it is for you to seek what is the truth, I will probably
cover all this at some point, but for now all I can say is NO
I’m worried for you. It’s a bad thing that Satanism thing.
Why worry it’s the greatest thing that has ever happened to me, look at it you
may find this to be true for you too
That’s a bit strange isn’t it? You’ve always been a bit strange.
yes your probably right and it’s not going to change at any point soon so with
all due respect get the fuck used to it it’s not gonna change now
I follow this path with vigour I carve my own path , when I found my father’s S.B I never knew how much a
book could influence me ,how much it actually opened my eyes , and then about
ten years ago although I’ve always followed this path vigilantly
I had an epiphany it was like a
massive click in my head and it was like id been reborn. I had been given this
ultimate power. how can you read the black popes most malevolent script , the
satanic bible and come out the other end of this life discovering , empowering
, liberating piece and not see with open eyes that this man has given you the
power , the ability to actually set yourself truly free I no longer shackle
myself with such doubt and self deceit,
I will fight for my domain like a
god '' I am Satan! I am the devil incarnate I am the anti Christ, I am the anti
Allah I am the kicker of Buddha’s pacifist arse. I am the antidote to
Scientology's mental disease I am the Mormons alien nightmare, I am the saddler
of Ganesh, i am the wiccans law of three folded back times a thousand... to all
who do not stand with their hands raised in the sign of the satanic horns and
truly represent my lord, and redeemer ! The horned one, the ruler of hell, the
gate keeper of the abyss, the dark prince, the king of evil ... SATAN-ME-YOU-US
Why do you look like that? Are
you Goth or emo?
the imagery that I sometimes use
is a personal preference, it’s down to you as an individual to decide where
being your own god takes you, dress in black, wear pink, where your pants on
your head and shoes on your hands because as Satanists why should we give a
flying pigs knackers what anyone else thinks, that's why we are Satanists is it
not? So that we may build our own temples erect our own altars! Some are
thinkers and some are talkers some are soldiers and some are infiltrators we
all control and shape our domains in whichever way suits us or benefits us, so
be it! If you desire it make it so! And have fun while doing it,
if I wear
black and an upside down cross this is fine if I wear a white onesey with
flowers on it that’s fine, there is no dress code because there is no code!
It’s what you do and say and feel that defines you, so do what has to be done!
What are you angry at?
I have FUN with everything and with
every breath , I love to be angry sometimes and have fun doing it !I also love,
laugh, cry, have feelings that everyone else has its just I don’t try to suppress
the majority of them and feed and grow with all of the pleasures this domain of
mine can bring being kind, loving, protective, can be fun and stimulating but
being bad is so much fun as well and it’s so empowering , as I also do not actively
chase down the weak ,I also don’t argue with the xiatans and white lighters I
leave that to the pseudo intellectual types and the satanic cannon fodder that
is the atheist movement , let them argue and pontificate to what we know but
have no need to quarrel about, because I believe a clear and defined
I AM A SATANIST! Will suffice
Satanic blessings
EGO SUM DIABOLUS VOS ES DIABOLUS
NOS ES DIABOLUS
HAIL SATAN
